Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Tagged by Tyger!

The rules are:
1. Link the person who tagged you to this post
2. Mention the rules in your blog
3. Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours
4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them
5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged blogger’s blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged

This me me is about any particular mannerism you have, ok?

Tygernity, you tagged me so here’s my creepy self…

1. I will never tell anyone I’m meeting for the first or second or third or forth time that I know anyone they know. As in NEVER. I just don’t want anyone linking me with anyone. I like to be known and judged for who I am and not who I know or related to. Chances are, we will never be close once you link me with anybody during this incubating period.

2. I have never been stranded. I honestly don’t know what it means. I always seem to have a plan ‘b’ or ‘c’ or‘d’. Maybe it is the independence in me, I don’t know for sure but that is the case. This has cost me a lot and I have learnt to subtly disguise my independence. I hope honestly that I am trying hard enough

3. I smell lies from 500 miles, ok maybe not but I know for sure that people display something on their faces when they lie. I see it, never miss it. A smile, a wrinkle, a stutter, movement in the brows, a look, anything. But I always know when a lie is told. Now it annoys me too, so I hardly ever say anything. As a matter of fact, I manage it by changing the topic of discussion cos I don’t want you telling more lies ;)

4. Help, I just don’t know how to say goodbye without crying!!! Even people I’m not close to o! it is sickening. I just must cry shaa. I’ll tell you how bad this is, the week I joined my current employer, a guy was leaving. Two days later was his send forth. As he was appreciating everyone and cutting his cake, I was crying. I didn’t even know the guy before!!! What the heck is wrong with me?

5. I am the only fat person I know that catches cold with the lightest movement of air. Help me if you are on my side too but it is embarrassing. I am supposed to have extra padding so I shouldn’t be feeling cold right? Wrong. I feel cold more than an average person

6. Aha!! Lastly, I have this strange belief or knowing that things will always work out in my favor. I believe God is the judge of all and He is my father and in the final analysis, He will always favor me first. If it is not working out now, its only a matter of time before it changes to my direction or I get a better deal

There you go, I made it. i now tag – 36, writefreak, unnaked,

Dreams

Ever really thought that dreams come true?

Dreams, not the images that fly in our heads when we sleep – no
But those knowings and desires we had when we were little about the various things we will do
as grown ups. Those ideas that just fly into our minds and either get us so excited and we just
can’t wait for tomorrow to come, yeah, those dreams. Those thoughts the creep in subtly and
just refuse to go.

I have done 31 years of living, and I have seen ideas practically walk out of papers to announce to you “I made it here!!!”, I have seen talks take form and thoughts filling voids. I have seen 5 thousands being fed from 5 loaves and two fishes, skinny long legs walking, graduating into brand new 2008 Toyota Camry. I have seen a ridiculed small boy grow up aspiring to lead a nation and yes I have seen some who have just never thought they could lack anything in life, and guess what, they never did.

I have often heard that life gives to you what you demand from it. In the same vane, I believe life takes from you, only what you let go. Hard talk, but true talk. After all is said and done, it is about what I choose to do, give, take, ask, see, and hear or whatever. It is about what I have allowed myself/ my mind to conceive. So again I ask, ever really thought dreams come true?
…Well, I think they do

I dream tomorrow will be absolutely magnificent, thanks to the great dreamers around me. To the DREAMERS!!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Past Six Days...

Hi blogville!!!

Ok you know what?

My passionette created this blog for me to empty my thoughts into.
But guess what, I never did. Just did not see the need to.
But now, right now, i.e this very moment,
I want to do it.
I feel the need to, and I’m going to do just that.

So here I go fellas.

I’m going to start from yesterday, no, five days ago and then travel down memory lane. If you care to join me, I’ll be grateful for the company.

Five days ago, I had my evaluation in the office and I was rated poorly by my reviewers…no promotion!!!

In a division of about 70 people, I was the only one not promoted.

Five days ago, division head calls me, with all the people I worked with during the year, to explain to me why I was not promoted. He explained alright. But the explanation made no sense. It sounded like ‘we will make it up to you, just accept this for now’.

Of course I could not accept this. I looked at all the people I worked with and asked them to speak up. They had commended my work during the year. I had actually taught one of them financial modeling and covered up for him when he did not know it. I looked at them like a lost child, saying say something……I heard nothing…… they said nothing…..it had been decided…….and I did not know why.

And to think I almost left this firm six days ago.

Four days ago, I walked into the office and I felt everyone looked at me funny. It was not easy because it was an intellect driven environment. Not to be promoted meant something was lacking up there. I broke down into tears. Some colleagues pretended not to know what was happening and others just did not know what to say to me. Frankly, I pitied them. These people have put us all in an awkward position. But guess what, I decided to take it in my stride. It was a tough call but I made it. (guess my life is not as perfect as I thought).

My hubby held my hands and told me ‘they have no idea what they just lost. Not one of them is fit to evaluate you; their poor opinion really is immaterial. We all know you for who you are and what you are made of’. Nice try I thought. I’ll go about my normal duties as if nothing has happened. I know and they know too that I don’t deserve what I got. Hell there’s more to my life than this work’.

Three days ago, a long lost friend called me and asked me to join their firm. They were offering me two steps ahead of my current position, double my package, a car of my choice (within a limit though) and some other perks to go with it. It was and oil service firm. I was lost. I asked why all these, they claimed they saw something I did for a client in my current firm and concluded they had to have me. Apparently, the same client I was rated poorly on, and for the same job too.

Did I think twice about it…..nooooo!!!

Well yes.

I had a little project I was working on and thought the job will conflict with it, so I actually did think about it.

Then, two days ago, I took the job. As I stepped into my new office, I was glad I took it. I was to come and run my show!!!

And I thought to myself, ‘where did these people put God when they were scheming things about me?’ apparently they thought he did not exist – f***s

Yesterday, my little project, potentially worth some bns sailed through. It is to keep my busy for the next three years. Ask me really, where did they put God in their plans?

So today, I need to decide what next to do with my life…help if you can.